These are the things I was conditioned to believe about being a woman from my family of origin, my faith tradition, and my culture.
Call it God or don't. Point and say 'that' when you see it and recognise it. Use descriptions and characteristics. Use the word from the place or tradition you're from. Sure - honestly, I think we all know what we're talking about here.
The honest reality is that asking big questions is scary. The ground feels a little less certain than it once did. You have a sense that if you ask this one, whatever the answer, there are likely a bucket load more that will tumble out. It is the start of the unravelling, you can sense it, and even the brave amongst us know that unravelling a whole life, a whole faith, a whole identity, a whole relationship, a whole way of being in the world IS NOT EASY.